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Well today I am feeling tense and my muscles are achey. Does stress cause this? If so then that is obviously a big issue for me. My boyfriend and I broke up 2 days before Christmas which got me very sad, but I didn’t let it kill my holiday spirit. I am still a little upset from all the drama that he has caused me and the way he tried to Grinch my son and I. Yes ladies, he turned into a Grinch and tried to take all of my sons’ gifts and every item that he ever paid for! Unbelievable right?! I would never have done this to anyone let alone anyone’s child, a few days before Christmas. Anyway, he didn’t take the toys or anything, and I called the cops asap. Of course some think I was wrong but, this was after I had tried to talk and reason with him. He didn’t want to reason or talk, he just wanted to be evil at this point and then started getting verbally aggressive. Well anyway, I was very sad,upset,and worried, but he did not get arrested because he left before the police came. My intention was not to get him arrested, I just wanted him out of my house and wanted my key back. I had already let him have all his clothing earlier, so he was wrong for keeping my key. Anyways, I still made Christmas dinner on Sunday and was still nice enough to invite him but he refused and said he didn’t want to talk to me anymore. From this point on I told him he didn’t have to worry about me contacting him ever again. However when Christmas came he tried to get in with his key and found slide bolt surprise. On Christmas night my son was at his fathers house and I was home alone until a special stranger came by.This special stranger and I had a few beers and just had good conversation and music that made me feel a very happy. Well I was left high and dry basically by my “ex-boyfriend” but, When there’s a will there’s a way . I got some money from my friends and family and this eased my mind for a minute. On the inside the pain of how he did me or how he tried to do me was eating away at me. I am a nice person but, its things like this that turn people for the worse.
I already see on the news all the people dying,being killed, children being hurt, and more drama.
I just keep saying to myself, I can’t believe all this is going on on Christmas or around Christmas time. So much drama….and not enough love….God knows it also broke my heart to see a dead dog near a heap of trash…like someone just killed him or he died but was thrown away like trash. I am an animal lover, but how can you try to love them if there are so many mistreating them, hating them, and fearing them. I cant tell you how many times it has broken my heart to see the mistreatment of pit bull dogs in Brooklyn. What does the ASPCA do??? What can they do to prevent or stop the mistreatment….all I have seen them do is kill more dogs through euthanasia than anything else.
Anyway, I offered my hand in friendship to my ex even after he turned it down before. Now we are supposed to be friends, and I’m kinda glad because I don’t need any enemies. I told him I wouldn’t mind being his friend and that I still care for him, but I don’t want a relationship anymore. For the New Year I just want to be single and free and at ease.However the night we made this friendship, it was turned into a “friends-with-benefits” deal. However, this deal is very monogamous because he doesn’t want anyone else to touch me. Therefore, because of this deal, I am also getting something in return, but if he fails on his part of the deal then our status will be “just friends”.
I have also found out that there are other females and ladies going through similar problems around the holidays. ******
(Example: My homegirl who’s baby father told her he didn’t want his kids. They broke up and are supposed to be friends now. I can’t believe that he would ruin her Christmas like that and his kids. His intentions were selfish and wrong. However, he is still a father and she does not want to take that away from him).
Are there any other ladies going through similar problems on the count of men or a man situation??